Long ova due....

I kinda started sumthang like dis yesterday but decided against postin' it. den I talked to a friend...an' she said its best I post it. Cuz I cant keep all dis inside. Sooo, here goes. I kinda still feel dis way...but Ill live. Yesterdays post was much mo' angry. it was basically me yellin' fo' a couple of pages but now...now I need to get mo' shit off my chest. Enjoy.
-Drew

Dear Stupid Slut Bitch Hoe Bag Cunt Whore,

Wutd u do to da girl I married? wut happened to her? since wen have u been all bout money? we didnt have it all but dammit, i thought we had sumthang.
ill admit im far from da perfect man, but least i was always man nuff to cum to u wen i had made a mistake. why? cuz u bitch were one of da only women ive eva luved in my entire life. but wen da tables changed, an' u cheated on me were u woman nuff 2 cum 2 me? no. u werent.
i gave u a second chance. i thought mayb if i stayed round in time ud return to bein' dat girl i luved so much. dat girl dat wud smile an' id feel dis strange feelin' in my chest... dat girl dat wud talk to me. an' tho wed argue deep down we knew we had sumthang. i thought if u an' me gave it anotha shot it cud work out, not jus fo' me an' u but fo' our son didnt work out tho... u hurt me 1nce. an' now a second time. an' i refuse to keep playin' yo' fool.
uve changed me. an' no its not fo' da best. i cud yell, i cud curse, i cud do all da thangs i did yesterday an' said all da things i did an' acted on da thoughts i had wen i caught u an' him in our home, in our bed, wit our son in da otha room!! Did i eva hurt u dat much!? I kno i messed up but jesus!!!!! since wen did we becum dis typical couple. man goes to work. cums home an' finds his wife bein' a whore. bitch i kno ure a dancer but dont bring dat shit in2 OUR home in da bed WE shared! i neva ONCE did dat shit 2 u! NOT ONCE!!! yes i made my mistakes but i did two thangs u seem to be incapable of. I apologized, I tried 2 make it rite, an' i took dat shit elsewhere!!! I FUCKIN LUVED U. DO U KNO HOW DAT FEELS?! I KNO I TREATED WOMEN WRONG IN MY LIFE AN' I GUESS DIS IS MY KARMA CUMIN' BAQ TO ME. BUT DO DIS FO' ME BITCH. JUS DIS 1 THANG. LOOK AT ME. TAKE A GOOD MUTHA FUCKIN' LOOK AT ME. IF DIS IS MY! KARMA...IMAGINE HOW URS IS GOIN' TO BE! JUST KEEP DAT IN MIND U DISGUSTIN' WHORE!
...im not askin' u to say ur sorry. fact is i can't even look at u. why? cuz im caught in da mixture of missin' u an' who u wherre an' wantin' to smash yo' hoe-ish face in wit a brick. i dont want a sorry bitch! i want my life baq! u ruined my life. an' while chances r ur not gonna read dis i jus wanna get it off my chest. dis is prolly by far da longest, most emotional post ive eva written but fuck it.IM A MAN ON DA EDGE!! I DARE YOU 2 PUSH ME! COME AROUND ME BITCH!! SEE WHAT YOU'LL CATCH. U HURT ME ONCE AN' I AINT DO SHIT. BUT DIS TIME UR GONNA WISH U NEVA FUCKED WIT ME. IM THRU BEIN' NICE AN' CARIN' BOUT HOW U FEEL. DIS TIME, IMMA HURT U WORSE DAN U HURT ME! IMMA MAKE U WISH U WAS DEAD!!

...Ayte...im dun...im thru. ive said wut i wanted to say so i'm out.

meaningless apol0gies. . . locked in a cage of dreamless sleep.
i see your face. . .
You went out of my life . . .
and left me. . .

to fret. . .
to stress. . .
to cry. . .
to choke on emotion. . .
i was hurting

bursting over y0u..

and then . . . here i am . . .

slowly. . .pickin myself up.

but you show signs you wanna invade my life again..
i wanted you back .. i needed you back .. but you left so never come back.